Good job, Marylin! From what you wrote, it sounds like you're trying your best, and that's all you can do. Keep it up. Don't give up. Things can and will get better. Just stay safe and take care of yourself. You can do this! Keep writing here if you need support. If it can help a bit... I'm here for you. I'll listen to what you have to say. I care about you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you