You're absolutely right. I would feel bad if something happened to her. She just pushes things so far with the insults, accusations, blackmail and gas lighting. The things is, she's not like that in person. When she's with me, she's nice, normal and someone I can respect and admire. But as soon as she leaves, this switch happens and this ugly person replaces her entire personality. It's why I've found it so hard to leave, because their is a better side to her.