You know that I care what happens to you,
And I know that you care for me.
So I don't feel alone,
Or the weight of the stone,
Now that I've found somewhere safe
To bury my bone.
And any fool knows a dog needs a home,
A shelter from pigs on the wing.
-Pink Floyd
Quis hic locus?, quae regio?, quae mundi plaga? What world is this?... What kingdom?... What shores of what worlds? It's a very big question you're faced with, Susanna. The *choice* of your *life*. How much will you indulge in your flaws? What are your flaws? Are they flaws?... If you embrace them, will you commit yourself to hospital?... for life? Big questions, big decisions! Not surprising you profess carelessness about them.
-Girl Interrupted, Dr. Wick
And I apologize, I prefer The Cure to The Smiths....
In the end, you need no one but yourself in this life. I hope you find that in time, and I hope you allow yourself time. There is too much to sacrifice for so little in return when it comes to self harm.
Please be safe.
Much love.
Marilyn