Thanks for the kind words.

I tanked even more after that post, a few days later, after getting more negativity from one of those **** people, and then from another one, but that's past me now, as I managed to get away from both of them, for real finally, it seems. Still have the training going, and I don't get as low with energy as before, though definitely still low.

However I have figured out that I cannot actually have that openness yet towards others that I mentioned. I get to feel everything in some overly personal way (definitely more than normal for me). That doesn't just apply to **** people. I don't know what that is. I just know I can't trust all these feelings "as is" that were not there before. I have to figure it all out and just get better slowly over time with everything, starting from the basics with building up.