You are making sense.

To be honest I hadn't really thought about it and I'm not sure how I feel now that you've brought it up. I don't really know if I'm better off or if I've lost something that I can't replace. It used to feel like I was just three different people at the same time, each coming out depending on the situation. I don't hear that younger chatter in my head anymore and just very rarely I doubt they're even there. I understand the gift part. I feel like I have lost that creativity and wonder.

But ho hum I already struggled with identity to begin with and more than anything I feel like I had a chameleon soul, no me just mimicking my environment.