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Dear T,

Thank you for responding. I am in so much agony. I don't know if anything I think is real, which horrifies me. I wish that I could see another therapist for one or two sessions.

My adult part - refuses to let you in on anything, refuses to tell you anything. It is protecting you, or trying to. It believes that the only way is to terminate with you. It is trying so diligently to be mindful, and I don't get this, but I just can't help it. My horribleness has a mind of its own. I don't understand.


My child part - this part is causing me so much pain. It is horrified of the following: abandonment by you, intense anger by you. This is nothing new. same dependency things.

Horrible part - horribleness that is intrusive, massive, negative, I really don't know what else to say. Is this really happening to me?