I'm so sorry, colouringrainbows Is there anything concrete in particular that mkaes you believe this, or is it just in your mind? In any case, I'd suggest to talk to your Pdoc about this and see how it goes from there. Maybe that could help. Maybe there are some meds that could help you out with this. Keep going to therapy and hopefully you will improve with time. Please don't give up. Things canand will get better. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you