I'm unwanted. I don't think there is anywhere for me to fit in. People are either coupled up or so in love with their own weirdnesses/addictions/jobs -- where are the nice people who just want to go to a movie or to get a burger--not a big production--just a quick outing for some diversion and pleasant conversation?

Something I have found particularly hurtful lately; a friend of mine has taken to suggesting through text that we should get together and when I have responded; I then don't hear back from her, and in fact usually find out later she has gone off and done something with her spouse or extended family. I understand she has a spouse and extended family--but if she isn't available I would rather she write "I thought about you today"; leave it at that, and don't get my hopes up that maybe we can have lunch together or go to the park.

I do volunteer work and that brings me into contact with people. But honestly; a lot of volunteer work is actually work; and I already work hard 40 hours a week. So I'm not chomping at the bit to take on yet another volunteer job besides the ones I have because I already know that is what it will be: a job.

I'm not sure why I was cut from the herd so early--but it looks like it was--and will remain, a permanent thing. Sorry if this isn't the answer you were looking for. But I needed to say that.