Three things that have helped me with my anger are ...

1. Going to the batting cages and pretending the balls are the faces of my abusers ... Whack!, Take That!

2. Going to the golf driving range and pretending the balls are the faces of my abusers ... Whack!, Take That!

3. Placing those blow up punching clowns around my living space and pretending they are my abusers ... Whack!, Take That!

I'm sorry that you are having to experience this too ...

Try to be extra patient, gentle and kind with yourself ... Especially when you have a meltdown and act out.

I've been working on my healing and recovery for 25 years now and can still be triggered and act out in ways that are not very becoming.

There's a reason we do that and it's not something people with C-PTSD can help!

But, the good news is that after working on it for all this time it doesn't happen near as much as it used to.

Not sure if it will ever completely go away, but it's nice to know it is a lot better than it used to be.

Remember ... Patient, Gentle & Kind ... Repeat it like a mantra if you need to!

We deserve a little self-empathy and compassion for ourselves, especially after all we've been through that led up to us developing Complex PTSD!