I seem to be relatively okay given those things I am in control of; like routine errands and chores out of the house. It is those things, like work, where things are constantly changing and I have little or no control over that are terrifying. The panic starts on the days off just knowing I must return to work only easing up when the last shift of the week is over. But again, I am already thinking about the following week before I even arrive home.

I have taken CBT several times. While the first time was fairly successful, things fell away and spiraled again the moment I returned to work.