^ could be, none of us knows what another is thinking. I've made more peace with the 2 yr thing, after talking to other people about it, that's not as big an issue to me now. I just really want to stop obsessing how the relationship being meaningless, I WANT to see the good in it.

Maybe it's part of grief, idk. When my dog died... I refused to talk about memories or anything with anyone, even T, for months. It wasn't that I felt it was meaningless, in that case, I knew he loved me and that he cared, no doubt, but it was that it was taken from me... I felt at times like he intentionally did it too and even told T that, which is absurd of course, but grief does weird things to your mind