Hi all- Another trd, mdd for over forty years, got about ten years' relief but it quit about eight months ago. looked into tms, was approved by medicare, the first five treatments went well at the lowest intensity, I even felt stronger, less depressed, hopeful there was a way 'out' of this horror show called depression. At my sixth treatment the intensity was raised a bit, just slightly, and now I'm deathly afraid for my seventh whichis later today, as the slightly higher intensity had me feeling like my right eye was being sucked out of my head. It was so bad I screamed and cried which is foreign to me. This leaves me with: I know I cannot continue at that intensity, 2-can I be left at the lower intensity and ultimately get antidepressant results, 3- where do I do from here if the lower intensity will not be done by the TMS providers? I am having a rough time wondering what will happen if I cannot continue? I also live in an area where medical care and newer type treatments are lacking.