Dear Former T: thanks for emailing me back. It really didn't help though. I mean it was good to hear from you and to know you are okay, but it just didn't help. Hopefully I will remember that for the future. I see new T on Friday. Stuff to talk about for sure but not sure I will be able to. The trust factor is not there yet, y'know?! I wish hearing from you would have helped this deep pain that I'm in from not seeing you. I wish something would help. Kit