My family therapy appointment was cancelled. My dad, like my actual father (not my step-father or uncle or father figure), texted to tell me he wanted to speak with the doctor alone. I thought he was asking me to ‘let him know when the appointment comes’, but he was talking about a package that was delivered in the mail. I snapped at him and said “I think you can manage that for yourself”, and “its under your insurance anyway and I don’t want to talk about it”. I want to go to therapy next week but am also very anxious because the therapy office is right next to the hair salon and I have not had a proper style in a while, nor can I afford a fancy one. Completely off-topic, my sister needs me(and hates me) and I want to be there for her but I can barely express myself without causing an upraor. That’s my goal though. To be there for myself and my sister and my family.

Still trying to take baby steps. Brrr. It is cold outside. Was it always this cold?