I am sorry elevatedsoul that you are having a hard time. maybe some reality testing will help... for example ...

if you have never been born how is that you are here now posting?

people who have never been born dont exist and can not go online and post...

if you have no feelings how is it that you are disgusted, fear and afraid?

Disgust, fear and afraid are feelings.

if you are not able to co exist with society then how is it that your other posts mention things like family, friends, work, seeing a therapist for your borderline personality disorder, seeing your doctors who are managing your meds, living with relatives...

all these are proof that you do co exist with society.

society is things like who you live with, who is in your life and around you, what your location is, work, family, friends, and other people and things in your community and what you do...

sometimes borderline personality disorder is like this where you are confused and lonely and isolating but just keep working with your treatment providers and you will be feeling better. in the mean time when you feel like this do some reality testing like I do with all my problems...it really does help.