It's not that I don't deserve to enjoy something, but this is a straight man's world, so I'm not part of the group. I'm not attractive enough to for them to want me around as an object they can look at. So, since I have no value to them, I have to be perfect in order to be allowed to "tag along".

So I'm mostly afraid of going to a jam session and just being viewed as cattle or an object because I wasn't good enough to be born with male parts.

So you could say I'm anxious doing anything that involves a lot of straight men.