I wish I wasn't but this is the usual pattern and it happened again last night. I feel relieved and upset all at the same time.

The pattern? I quit jobs.

I find a job. I like it at first. I put in the best effort I can to be perfect and not get into trouble. This results in getting noticed and then being given additional responsibilities and duties. This results in increased pressure on me to perform at a high level. The anxiety increases exponentially to the point it consumes my life. Eventually I am having panic attacks. Eventually I am driven to the point I can't continue and I quit.

I find a job. I like it at first..... and so on and so on and so on.