Im Money hungry 🤔

Hummm... using the term possesion i meant as if something else steps up to the front, outside world, while the rest of the energy is detoured.

I contemplate that from time to time as im not in agreement with some of myself, or actions, desires, or feelings(?)Sometimes.

But i go on some how a lot of times not aware of the change, until i sort of snap back and have a 'moment' becoming aware and changing back.. its bad during a lot of stress, and often triggers a depression as i dont want to live like that..


I don't know what seemingly version of me is me any more? So, i used the term foreign.. feeling separated and unrecognizeable?


The 1 thing i do know, is the version i am trying to create!

Rich and stable! Money, cars, house, friends, happiness, no drama, no drug abuse!

As it stands, i have no money, no car (again), no job (again), no friends, my family is ****ed so cant even talk to them, dont even seem to have myself.
But i can create, and creation i will