I'm so sorry, seeker33 Try to hang on until you start your work. Maybe you'll feel better by that point. Goon on you for applying all the coping skills you know. Keep doing that. And please, don't feel guilty, it's not your fault this is happening to you. It's clear you're trying your best to deal with it. Just stay safe, do your best, and wait until work begins. Hopefully you'll feel better then. Most importantly, be proud of yourself for this new job! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you