I feel just like you I have a hard time when it comes to going to my doctors,they dont like me to much because I have told then off,They say they understand that I cannot go out but clearly they dont.Do you have someone who could go with you? I mean with me sometimes if my son takes me I feel somewhat better but that is when I cant get him to take me,.Going out is such a task for us.I often wonder if it stems from something from when we were kids.Even when I was younger I was afraid to go out,have that feeling as if someone is watching me.Never could get comfortable.