Sometimes I feel just so mentally and emotionally fatigued that all I can bring myself to do is watch tv, which leads to a lot of self-loathing etc blah blah blah - but then the next day something will happen to lift my spirits to the point where I can look up budget holidays on Google, or go out and meet with friends and generally feel that I can hold my head up reasonably high in public.

It’s so hard not knowing if you’re going to wake up feeling able to face life, or if you’re going to wake up feeling like a burden on society.

Hang in there - it’s always worth it for the good days. I find gratitude lists very helpful - have you tried them?