With regard to your job ideas, it sounds like your question is something like “what do I want to be?” This is a very hard question to answer, partially because there are so many possibilities out there, many of which you might not even know of.

I wonder if a better question might be “what should i do next?” For myself, I know that even four years ago I would never have dreamed that I could do what I have been doing for the past three and a half years. I could never have planned it. But one reasonable step led to some new choices and a reasonable step from there led to another, etc. Maybe something like that could work for you?

I am happy to hear that you joined that church! New doors could open there as well.