Something I like is nature. Unlike humanity, nature's only cruel when it has to be. I've known about my job for a while. In order to protect the others, I had to know about them, in our situation at least.
I'm sorry your protector did that. Our pdoc doesn't know. Only our therapist. I'm not much of a yeller and I'd rather sit back until I'm needed. Só hasn't been so good, which is sort of why I'm here. Can you talk to your alter/protector about maybe trying the "sit and watch" approach?