I was like that in high school. now im 57 yrs old and married with a son. you can get through this, this too shall pass. I never knew would be blessed with anything, but was in the end. Ive also had a very very hard life family wise and friendship wise. you can and will get over this you may have to learn more about socialization, can you take some pshycology courses to help you. even an online college program if you can get one or afford it, take out a loan too?good luck!!!