There's no way out for me anymore I've had enough of fighting by all my research sorry but it seems a lot never get really better and are still unhappy 20-30 years on.
I'm not doing that I thought a lot about every day.i live alone and for now I have a dog to keep alive.

I know all the things to do etc please no get out for a walk reality is nothing can change things and there is no good help in public system. I hate this illness and had enough