Hang in there, Kiwi2222, please. Yes, I can relate to your situation of no improvement over the years. In fact for me, it got a bit darker along the way. That's not supposed to happen, bleh.

But you're not alone and perhaps this is all a spiritual test of sorts? In fact, I myself have come to see it that way. We're just one little drop in the eternity of the ocean of stars.