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Originally Posted by Kiwi2222
There's no way out for me anymore I've had enough of fighting by all my research sorry but it seems a lot never get really better and are still unhappy 20-30 years on.
I'm not doing that I thought a lot about every day.i live alone and for now I have a dog to keep alive.
I know all the things to do etc please no get out for a walk reality is nothing can change things and there is no good help in public system. I hate this illness and had enough
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Hi Kiwi. Sounds like you are really struggling. I'm sorry to hear that
I live with unipolar depression. It's been with me since childhood but I can honestly say that I am feeling some significant improvement as an adult. When I compare my current situation (I'm in my late 30s) to my teens, I am a LOT better...how I think, how I view myself, how I function day to day etc. I have also noticed continued improvement in my late 20s and early 30s. It's a slow and gradual change and I still have some dark days or eves but I definitely feel a lot better than in the past. I also have an increasing sense of hope for my future which was lacking for a very long time. I've changed my thinking about my depression and tried new strategies. I gave up on meds years ago because they didn't work.
You mentioned that people are still unhappy 20-30 years later...people are unhappy for all sorts of reasons...it may not be helpful to you to compare yourself to others or to make predictions about your future based on other people's trajectories. That said, I completely understand why you feel you hate the illness and sometimes feel like you've had enough. That's human. Of course you want to be happy. If you'd like to discuss further, feel free to PM me. I don't want to give unsolicited advice
Peace and healing energy to you Kiwi; you deserve it.