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Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky
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Unfortunately, T's can't help much; one asked me how I was still alive considering what I've lived through. It's a long story. In a nutshell, I was bullied by my homophobic mother for decades because I was not the son she wanted. She thought that bullying me would make be appear less gay; she was embarrassed by my existence. She achieved that but I seem to have lost myself in the process and incurred other mental damages. She did not like me for other reasons that had nothing to do with me, e.g., revenge for an older brother who she claims was spoiled. (He was 13 years her senior so a lot of the things her parents did to help make her brother grow up to be successful were done before she was born and she was not denied anything. Further, she also had music and dance lessons paid for by her parents so she also received the same treatment to help make her successful. My mom seems to have had some personality disorder and was very unhappy because she had 4 sons when her goal was to have a daughter. Her disappointment led to a lot of cruelty for my and my brothers.)