Last week I cut the artery in my wrist whilst dissociated. I managed to phone an ambulance as I'm assuming the bleeding brought me back. This is the second time in about 6 weeks that this has happened, with the police treating my house as a crime scene as the paramedics did not think I was going to make it. I'm still feeling weak from the blood loss, but I fear that it's going to happen again. Everyone I feel my heart beat or pulse, I feel like it needs to stop. I don't want to die, but I feel like it's going to happen. I just don't feel safe. I told my psychiatrist this today, but I feel like she isn't helping, she knows I dissociate but states I still need to be responsible for my own safety. It just doesn't feel that easy.