I don't think it's easy to change psychiatrist as they are linked to the GP surgery I'm registered with. It does help writing here in the sense that others understand me. I'm really trying to stay strong and keep my mind active. I wrote a new crisis plan with grounding techniques and mindfulness in the hope I don't dissociate so readily, but I can't help feeling that it's going to happen regardless, and feel I need to prepare myself for it.