I'm so sorry, Angie84 I understand what you mean. It's good that you're making a plan. Let's hope nothing will happen, but at least you're preparing yourself for it. Be proud of yourself for that. And yes, keep trying your best - that's all you can do, after all. I hope your psychologist will be able to help as well. Keep writing here if it helps. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you