I'm so sorry, annoyedgrun84 I can relate to what you wrote. But please remember that just because you feel that way, it doesn't mean it's necessarely true. Perhaps you're not coming off as rude or boring, but instead as charming or lovable. I think it would be useful to work oun your self-confidence and self-love. After all, we can't fully love others if we don't love ourselves first. As AzulOscuro has already said, I'd suggest therapy as well. I think there are also some good self-help books on the subject. Perhaps you coul try to take a look at them? Either way, I'm so sorry. I hope one day you'll be able to see yourself as the kind, lovable person you truly are. Please don't give up. Things can get better. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I hope writing here helps a bit. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you