Hello Enyapla: I believe this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry you are struggling with so many mental health concerns. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

You mentioned you are in therapy but you fear bringing up what you feel may be a huge & potentially ridiculous concern. I do agree the concerns you have could be considered huge. But I certainly don't think they are in any way ridiculous. It's important to be as open & honest as possible in therapy. Your therapist can only be of as much help to you as possible to the extent you can be as forthright as possible.

Here are links to a selection of 6 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that may be of interest to you given the concerns you've mentioned here:

About Treatment Resistant Depression (TRD)

What You Need to Know About Treatment-Resistant Depression

Anxiety Disorders Overview: Symptoms, Treatment & More | PsychCentral

Living with an Anxiety Disorder

Understanding the Effects of Trauma: Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)

https://psychcentral.com/blog/memory...r-from-trauma/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.