Yes, definitely go to a mental health center if you can, sauciershadetree. You need to take care of yourself first. You can decide to tell the truth to the people who care about and start the right treatment later. But right now, you need help, and that's what matters the most. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. I hope you'll feel better soon. You can do this! You're strong, I'm sure of that. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you