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Default Jan 26, 2019 at 05:47 PM
 
I am not a jealous person but I used to be an envious person and that mostly happened when I was really unhappy with myself. For me I experienced that a lot when I was actively drinking, the alcohol would start out making me happy and loose and it wound up making me angry and bitter. Therapy helped a lot with helping me make peace with myself but after almost dying and losing everything its gratitude that eliminated the envy. I was so luck I stopped drinking and that I was able to. And I am so lucky I didnt lose my family or my life. Once I got through the grueling w/d (because like a fool I went cold turkey when I should have gone to detox) and was able to open my eyes and not have the room spin or be covered in sweat or have my hands shake- I had hope that I could get better. I had hope that I was still alive. That is not to say I am never envious. I think we all have at least one person we can feel envy over. But its so infrequent that I cant even remember when it happened last. Yes, I think its gratefulness that changed the tide for me in that way.

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