I still don't understand how this is a screw up. Depression is a mental illness. Sometimes depression even skews our perception of things - as you seem to have noticed. I think your guilt over this has more to do with depression than anything else. I understand regretting that your psychiatrist spent time writing a report. However, the reason he did that was because you were experiencing (in my opinion) delusions related to your mental illness. That is not a "screw up" on your part.