Sorry you are struggling Rise13beyond. I have trouble at night sometimes, and with darkness, but it's because my PTSD can get triggered in the dark particularly if my S.O. is away for work and I'm home alone. Sometimes I actually have to keep every single light on in my home just so my brain will relax enough to let me fall asleep. Though that's certainly not every night...those are the bad nights. I also get very trippy nightmares sometimes...the sort that can bother you during the day when you remember them. I just try to ignore them.

Sleep paralysis is associated with sleep disturbance...broken sleep. Have you ever had a sleep study? it's important to get that addressed, not a good idea to just ride it out.

How's your mood during the day? How's life in general? How do you feel about yourself, your goals etc?

Do you have a history of trauma?

Peace to you.