Thank you so much for making this thread, beauflow! I hope it will help someone here at PC. Please don't give up. You're doing great. Just take it one step at the time. It will get easier. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Remember that we're here for you if you need us. We all love you here. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you