I don't have an eating disorder, but just wanted to say that I was unnaturally skinny as a kid (weigh under normal on the height and weight charts). I was skinny. No doubt about it. Was I happy? No, not at all. My depression and anxiety were pretty severe.

Now I am slightly overweight, but have my depression and anxiety under control with medication and feel much better. My cousin admitted to me that when we were kids, she was jealous of how skinny I was. I hated myself and couldn't imagine anyone being jealous of me.

Just to let you know being skinny has nothing at all to do with happiness.

Also, if you're trying to get pregnant you do need to eat enough. I don't think a woman's body will let her get pregnant if she doesn't have enough body fat. Women who diet too much stop menstruating and can't get pregnant.

Not sure if this helps. But I hope you can find a therapist for ED and get some help.