Been snorting a small line of 30-40mg ketamine because it wears off after a few days and I get really melancholic or worse, numb. 4 days behind on my Concerta because I'm waiting for the doctor to increase the dose. Filling my lost days in with Vyvanse. Addicted to nicotine spray although I quit smoking 3 months ago. Idk when I can get off the nicotine spray. Drank two drinks of alcohol when skiing even though I knew it would make me feel depressed. Doesn't take much alcohol to do that. Got rid of the DMT because I was afraid that I would use it and then get locked up in the psych ward for the rest of my life. Got rid of the MDMA too. Haven't touched my Ativan. I have 19 left and only use them in case of panic attacks.

I think I'm doing good so far in terms of addiction. It's almost non-existent compared to what it used to be.. The point is to be sober which is why I also want to get off nicotine spray.