Great advice in this thread. One thing I'd like to point out is that you have every right to want a life that is free from abuse. Our abusers will argue with us about that. It's all very confusing when our abusers are family members and we have this underlying sense of obligation to do whatever they think we should do. What matters most is the peaceful life you envision for yourself and how you're going to go about creating that and cultivating that. Don't listen to people who are violent. They have their own problems. Keep boundaries. It is very important for someone in your situation to see a counselor and visit the forum regularly.

Our dreams have a unique way of guiding us. Not every dream means something but the ones with powerful emotions are the dreams we need to review. The best interpreter of our dreams is the dreamer themselves because only YOU know your archetypes. Try using a dream journal and a simple highlighter. Highlight all the parts YOU believe are significant and then carefully write out all the emotions and, if possible, the specific situation it might be tied to. I think you will find lots of information in that exercise.

Hope you are able to have more restful sleep very soon, collins.