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Default Feb 01, 2019 at 09:09 AM
 
I think I have too many memories and will be sent over the edge of I try to open up about them in therapy. Do you just force yourself to do it anyway? I feel as if I don't force it, it will never happen. There are moments when I feel I can confidently do it and others where I feel like running away and never going back. It seems like once the door is opened, it won't close if I change my mind. It feels like a surrender of control and I've spent a lot of years mastering how to keep things under control so I can function in my life. The idea of allowing someone else to enter that internal world is almost traumatic in and of itself. I think I'm in a safe environment until my defensive mind comes in and convinces me otherwise. This lack of consistency in my thoughts is tormenting.
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