I'm so sorry you're struggling, Enyapla I wish I've had more advice to give to you. Please don't give up. I know things seem pretty hard, but trust me when I say that they can get better. Don't give up hope. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Do you have a support system IRL? Any friends or family that may help you? I'm so sorry. I hope you'll feel better soon. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. I hope writing here helps a bit. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this