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Default Feb 01, 2019 at 10:31 PM
 
It's certainly affecting my ability to function in the now. I felt I had 2 choices: therapy or suicide. I chose the therapy route. I don't know what I expected, but it was certainly better than the alternative. Now I'm faced with needing to face reality about myself and how the things I've been through have molded me. I have a lot of fear. I'm less afraid of what other people think and more afraid of losing control. Honestly, the things I say to myself are far more critical than what anyone else could possibly say. Then there's the part that is protective and doesn't want to let anyone near me. It's getting through my own layers of junk that seems to be the hardest part. That junk, no matter what it looks like, has gotten me through life to this point. I don't know... Now I feel like I'm just rambling.

I'm just going to need to (metaphorically speaking) push myself off the cliff an let whatever happens happen.
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