Please don't call yourself a loser. You seem an intelligent person who is going through a rough patch. Ignore the labeling. Those who do that have their own issues. For years I listened to the critics. Not worth it. Why believe them. I think self confidence is like body armor. The links of the armor are good things you know about yourself. My parents were critical people who labeled their kids. Not good. That took a bit of undoing. Again don't listen to the critics no matter who they are. You are worthy of finding love and acceptance.