I'm so sorry you're struggling, sexaddictintrouble I understand your doubts. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I know it's hard. Perhaps you could try to read some book on the subjects if you can't get official treatment. Keep trying with that, though. I hope you'll get the help you need. I'm so sorry, I wish I've had more advice. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you