I'm so sorry you're struggling, Bigheadbob Please don't give up. You don't need to sto letting other people in your life. Instead, I think you just need to focus on yourself for a short while. Since you seem to be struggling with your dependency on other people, perhaps you just need to work on that. Try to learn how to become indipendent, and be able to cope on your own. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. It can be very useful for things like this and you could start exploring yourself and your own personality. Just know that this isn't your fault. You just need to learn how to deal with it, that's all. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need. It's not easy, I know. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this