I'm so sorry you're feeling so lonely, sadveiledbride Please don't give up. Try to find some distractions if you can. Do you have any hobbies? What do you like to do in your free time? If it can help a bit... we're here for you. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. Keep writing here if it helps. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you