I'm so sorry, randomer123 Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn where these obsessions come from, and learn how to stop them. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Unfortunately obsessions are hard to get away from. They don't necessarely follow any logic, at least at first glance. That's why it's important to discover where are they coming from. Please get the help you need, if you haven't already. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I hope you'll feel better soon. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Please don't worry about writing too much. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always available if you need to talk. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you