I don’t miss my school days a single bit.
I was very confused with so many names but honestly, I don’t think the most part of these people are being real friends. I understand you need to feel acepted (it’s a human condition) and I know it’s very important for you at this point of your life (I guess you are still very young). I couldn’t cope with these people, on one hand, Susan the one who bullied you. And then, Josie, who likes to talk about you with everyone but directly to you.
I know it’s hard. Do you have the possibility to meet other people there, at that group?
I really feel for your situation. Rejection and criticism are hell to be cope by people with bpd, even when they might neither exist, when they do exist, I know it’s a hell.
All my support for you.